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Wednesday, March 9th, 2005
6:55 am	someone spilt gay all over monadnock. schools been going great. no really, the grades are going up. yeah maybe still an F in math. but math sucks anyway. ha ha ha. um..been to some local shows, plan on heading the ones next week. fri and saturday. hell yeah. battle of the bands. LIVE. isaac came home, got to see him. he will be back soon...BON-FIRES! damn right. some times i get the feeling that some of the friends i have, arent really friends at all. now thats a bummer. amos called me last night. god it was good hearing him again. feels like forever. ha ha ha. waterville valley april 4th i gues. im going up to stay all weekend, i know the first night is free but you have to stay for 2 more dayss. not bad. madison won killington tickets and gave them to a boy with a sprain. its on. i want those tickets. all day free passes. then i could finally ask that kid down the road to hang out. god how beautiful it would be. ha ha ha. EURO TRIP NEXT APRIL.....im excited. i didnt even mention that right now..im suppose to be in school. oh no...2 hr delay. yee haa. wow i just forgeting everything well heres a list: 1. party sat and sunday. was fun. met some hot 13yr ol. ha ha ha 2. my lil sis (14) got busted with the maryjane. let the good times roll. 3. im not going to drink for awhile...LONG while. R.I.P...zimma Current Mood: creative Current Music: the ataris "the saddest song" (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
7:21 pm	photos, rum, and strippers so on monday i got the worst news i could have ever gotten. isaac was shot in the face 3 times over in iraq. i couldnt stop crying. it still hurts to think about what hes going through right now. i miss him so much. they are like family to me. it just hit so close to home when it happened. but sence then me an amy have been talking a lot. hes doing awsome, just a little while he was sitting up talking. god. he said to let me know everythings all right. wow i miss them. i just want to be there for amy. i know how she is an i know she knows that im there for her. oh i didnt mention that they are down on the navy base in maryland. i just want everything to get better. EVERYTHING. ive noticed today that sence monday i havent really had all that emotion. ive been crying a lot. but not too much going on. me, nic an amy benson went to see boogyman last fri. in my opinion...it sucked. there were some good parts..an a shit load of bad. the ending sucked. but it was just cool hangen out with nic an benson. good times. we ended up going to the mall on superbowl sunday. it was fun..just me an nic. good long ass drive though. umm..we all most died 2 or 3 times. it was just a kickass time. oh an i hope to start my new job next week at the nursing home in jaff. ill be working in the kitchen. sounds like fun eh..well i get $7 an hour..not too shabby. schools going ok i guess. holly an justin broke up. i love holly dont get me wrong, but they just werent happening. ive never hung out with them outside of school..but how they act in school, it cant be too good at home. but hey at least they are still friends. i watched the grudge....that movie rocked. i was friggen scary. im still kind of scared of the dark. the part when she is crawling out of the bag, now that shit was scary. well this weekend better be good..cause i really need a break from crying..i really dont know why i keep on crying...its isaac, an just everything in general. i dont know..my grades suck, alex doesnt talk to me any more, amos doesnt seem to want to talk to me, people have to count on paying for me to do anything..an it SUCKS to know that you cant hang out with your best friends because you dont have any $$$. this job is going to be good for me..i hope. http://www.keenesentinel.com/main.asp?SectionID=31&SubSectionID=37&ArticleID=54100 go there to see the article.... Current Mood: numb Current Music: my chemical romance.." im not okay" (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
11:21 am	sweet nothings so i didnt do anything so far this weekend. ive been sick sence sat night. now what a time to get sick. not to mention i got pink eye again. yeehaa. ive seen new movies this weekend. such as.. spider (Fucken gay ass movie, not worht the .50), a man apart, seven, devils island, and dragonfly. wasnt too much going on. so mellisa never called me. so thats great. i have no idea if we are going to the movies or not. i want to go but mom says to take it easy. ha ha ha..like that will happen. umm..nicole hasnt called or anything. i called her yesterday to let her know about a snowboard trip but she never got back to me. whatever. missed it. god im tierd. peace kids shit did i mention we arent going to canada. there wasnt enough people for it. now thats a damper on the plans.. You scored as True Skater. You know alot about skateboading. Its not all about getting sponsered yet, you just skate to skate. Its your mecca for your messed up world and you do it cuz its funn. Your life will continue to get better just dont give up on skating, keep on going! </td> True Skater 90% Know your shit! 75% Poser 25% Old Skater 25% Do you know skateboarding? created with QuizFarm.com Current Mood: sick Current Music: blink 182 ft the cure "all of this (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 12th, 2005
9:07 pm	drink or not to drink. ha ha ha..yeah the weekend was good. except for the fact i cant hear out of my right ear. ever sence friday. its been gay. what ever. going to the docs office tomorrow to fix the stupid lil shit. um...this weekend i HOPE turns out good. nics hangen with eric i guess. so i dont know who im going to chill with. maybe ill head over to jills an shit. hang there for awhile. i called nic an she was trying southern comfort for her first time. ha ha ha...i told her it burns. it feels warm ALL the way down. so we have come to the conclsion that mr badders. a sci teacher at our school , likes nic. he hits on her mad crazy. always talking about big tits around her, he was even like wanna hear something funny. an motioned for nic to go over there. hes like theres a town called. fucking. ha haha...hmm...dirty lil mind. schools not so bad now. I HAVE TO GET THAT MONEY SOON. by fri i need $150. hmm..drug money?..slut money?....hmm...pimp money...yes..ill earn my money by pimpen out my friends. hell yeah. i just gotta sit back an chill while these fuckers do all the damn work. good life is good. so nic feels bad about what this kid blain said to her...i guess he was drunk..told her he wanted to you know...do.."the deed". but i guess he didnt mean it. come on man..you cant say shit like that an take it back. those kids were cool..i wouldnt mind hangen with em again. i hope i didnt make a bad impresion on them. i mean..im not that bad of a person. trip to canada = $440 new snowboard for canada = $360 watching everyones face when nic spills her beer then trips over her self down cement stairs = priceless. Current Mood: creative Current Music: the ataris.."summer wind was always our song" (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 9th, 2005
5:58 pm	gosh my life is good GREAT FUCKEN WEEKEND.....GREAT! i really wish nicole woudnt go to canada next week though. i want us to go together for our first time.    ((Bold what applies)) 01. I miss somebody right now. 02. I don't watch much TV these days. 03. I love black olives. 04. I love sleeping. 05. I own lots of books. 06. I wear glasses or contact lenses.  07. I love to play video games. 08. I've smoked pot. 09. I've watched porn.  10. I have been in a threesome 11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. 12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy. 13. I have acne free skin. 14. I like and respect Al Sharpton. 15. I curse frequently.  16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.  17. I have a hobby. 18. I like to dance. 19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. 20. I'm really, really smart 21. I've never broken someone's bones.  22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. 23. I hate the rain.  24. I'm paranoid at times.  25. I would get plastic surgery. 26. I need money right now! 27. I love Sushi. 28. I talk really, really fast. 29. I have fresh breath in the morning. 30. I have semi-long hair. 31. I have lost money in Las Vegas. 32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister. 33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S. 34. I shave my legs on a regular basis. 35. I have a twin. 36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. 37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. 38. I like the way i look. 39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.  40. I know how to do cornrows.  41. I am usually pessimistic.  42. I have a lot of mood swings. 43. I think prostitution should be legalized. 44. I think Britney Spears is hot. 45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past. 46. I have a hidden talent. 47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. 48. I think that I'm popular.  49. I am currently single. 50. I have kissed someone of the same sex. 51. I enjoy talking on the phone only if its someone i want to talk to. 52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. 53. I love to shop. 54. I would rather shop than eat. 55. I would classify myself as ghetto. 56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders. 57. I'm obsessed with Livejournal. 58. I don't hate anyone. 59. I'm a pretty good dancer. 60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington  61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. 62. I have a cell phone. 63. I believe in (a) god. 64. I watch MTV on a daily basis. 65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. 66. I love drama class.  67. I have never been in a real relationship before. 68. I've rejected someone before. 69. I currently have a crush on someone. 71. I want to have children in the future. 72. I have changed a diaper before.  73. I've called the cops on a friend before.  74. I bite my nails. 75. I am a member of the Napoleon Dynamite fan club. 76. I'm not allergic to anything that i know of. 77. I have a lot to learn.  78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.  79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest movie. 80. I am very shy around the opposite sex.   81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message usually. 82. I have at least 5 away messages saved. 83. I have tried alcohol or drugs. 84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past. 85. I own the "South Park" movie.  86. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.  87. When I was a kid I played "doctor" "house" with a neighbor or friend. 88. I enjoy some country music. 90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. 91. I watch soap operas whenever I can.  92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist. 93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career. 94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. 95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story". 96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. 97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. 98. I have dated a friend's ex.  99. I'm happy as of this moment 100. I'm a virgin Current Mood: content Current Music: green day..."basket case" (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 5th, 2005
7:28 am	news sucks ive been waiting for awhile now for snow...an it hasnt come yet. im pissed. so nicole gave nelson my ap. today. i hope. today was all right. i guess. not to brag. but...these sweatpants are sick. god how great they are. wow. ha ha ha....jesus is up to his normal pranks an shit. those kids are funny as hell. ive got to bring black nail polish tomorrow so they can make the #'s on the lockeres disapear. ha ha. it all ways feels good when some one tells you that you look good. jens was standding in the door way to her class an i walked by an said something. her friend was like thats your sister, wow shes pretty. im like...damn right..ha ha ha. not to mention that her teacher mr. badders called jen a loser today. i guess hes always saying shit about her. so...i told her to tell him if he says anythign else like that....make sure he knows that he better watch out or ill kick his ass. ha ha ha....god cant wait till tomorrow. this weekend is going to be good. fri- sleeping over nics...sat- paintball, party in troy. sun- hang out with holly justin an nic. hell yeah. good times man. i hope. CANADA hell yeah. cant fucken wait. nicole payed for me. the $50 we had to have. wow what a fucken great friend. i know that no one else would ever do anything like that for me. i love her to death. shes just a great person. right on sucka. now peace out. quote of the day: " wheres your head?...".."oh..nicole gave it away" Current Mood: calm Current Music: pink floyd "the wall" (Comment on this)
Monday, January 3rd, 2005
8:36 pm	blow 1. snowboard (shaun whites burton) - boots..dc - bindings..forum 2. new contacts..those cool color ones..green 3. maybe some more pants. 4. a couple of new piercings 5. hair dye...shit that works. maybe just bleach. so those are just some things that i would like to get right after i get my job. but i know that when i get the job i need to ... - pay my $300.00 fine - get my licence this is the shit i REALLY need. i hope nicole helps me to get the job. i know i wont fool around. im an awsome worker. an i get along pretty well with the crew there. i KNOW nicole will try an get me the job, shes my best bud. so..its obvious. ha ha ha.. i think we would work good together. the canada trip is soon. i hope i can go. the $50 is due on wed. but i dont know if i really want to go. i do want to go. but i have so much shit i have to pay for right now. hmm...what to pick. senior year isnt as fun as people say it is. last year was fun. Current Mood: worried Current Music: soul asylum "runaway train (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 2nd, 2005
12:35 pm	some times the pain is so much.. just let go... Current Mood: guilty Current Music: third eye blind "slow motion" (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 30th, 2004
6:55 am	anti-love got another application for dunks. maybe this time ill bring it in. ha ha ha.. me an nic hung out today..it was fun. just like always. she came around 1 an then we peaced out to keene. i got a new 686 jacket, hair dye (black), bleach an pink dye. new ashlee simpson cd, chapstick. an i bought nic a christmas prez. a dikine t-shirt an a 7in dc sticker. ha ha the sticker looks sick on her car. the tshirt looks good too. it funny..it says " geting lucky in kentucky"...ha ha ha...god im in a laughing mood. so i guess tomarrow im going to nics an me an her an justin are drinking. i hope the parentals let me go. this would be the first new years together. so ....it better happen or im going to be pisses. PISSED. dad buliding a new bathroom. an he told me to be home at 5:30 so i could help him. but..its 7 an he still hasnt asked me to help him yet. hmm.....gay. RESIDENT EVIL 2 kicked ass. it was damn good. Current Mood: content Current Music: the jim carroll band..."these are the people who died" (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
6:33 am	gut buster i helped move meg an matt into their new house sun an mon. it was fun. meg is amys sis. ive known them for ....5 or so years. thier whole family treats me like im one of them. ha ha ha..its awsome being around the croteau fam. so then after moving on tues we (me an aim) went to brandys to babysit. didnt get paid...so..that sucked. but around 9 casey an some of here friends came to pick us up at brandys. ha ah aha...it was fucken awsome. they are so funny. i didnt get to meet amys new boyfriend. but theres always next time. i came home today..after 3 days. i gave ham (my hampster)..plenty of food..changed his cage. but i came home today..around 3 an he was dead. i dont know how to fell...i was so sad..so... ---------- FRIDAY 31st @ 11:00 there will be a memorial to all those who knew him. there will be crackers an cheese served @ 10:45. please brings momentos. ----------- umm...maybe abour 10 mins ago my lil sis sasha..shes 3...she fell an instead of putting her hands out she didnt get them out in time an she fell on her face. but i guess like a month ago she fell off my moms bed an like an hour later she went limp. i guess she knocked herself unconius. so this time after she feel my dad was looking at her an she went limp again. he was like im calling 911. he grabed the phone. it was scary. i really thought somethign bad happened to her. so it was only for like a brief sec with her though. shes fine now. now ambulance nothing. reminds my of 9th grade. after i got hives from licking this fruit me an jen ( my 14 yr ol sis) found in my backyard..i passed out the next morning. it was crazy..i got to ride in the ambulance. yeehaaa. too bad i dont remember most of it. so enough with me. im going to do some home work an then im going down to teris to hang with them. play some SCENEIT....that game fucken rocks. ha ah ha... Current Mood: sore Current Music: snoop dog..."drop it like its hot" (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 25th, 2004
12:34 pm	Merry Xmas My lil friends christmas is going good. woke up areound 7 then came up staris to see my mom, rush an sasha. yes jen slept in my room again. we have been doing the slumber party thing for...about...6 years now. well ever sence we stoped sharing a room. its nice. i dont really have too many traditions. it was fun. i got some money...$170.00. damn right. $50 goes to canada. hell yeah. i just got to tell my parents i want to go. i got some film for i izoe camera. pic, frame, tom petty and the heartbreakers <---a cd. life is good. not to mention my CKY POSTER. damn....new slippers. an plenty of other goodies. so my uncle an jess are here. it nice having family around. i love the holidays. granpa an granma J came ove rlast night with uncle brian. brought shit load of food. including chicken parmesan. ooo...la la. now its time. i cant wait ot buy nicole something. i finally have money. hell yeah. gramp an gram d are comming soon. HAPPY CHRISMAHANAQUANZIKA! oh shit how the hell could i forget the sick poster my da got..the gratful dead. train station one. now that is oo..la la. ha ha ha. Current Mood: loved Current Music: tom petty..."mary janes last dance" (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004
3:25 am	fuck you it was pretty cool of dave to throw those markers at my face. i mean i know it might be funny to you, but it fucken pisses me off. yeah...i know he only means it as if to pick on me..but...some times shit goes too far. an it was also pretty fucken cool of caritia to sit in the back of the bus an yell at me from there. ha ha ha...i thought i hear her talking to me. well...fuck her man. real friends dont fucken do that. i dont care if you didnt take your meds or what. treat me like shit an ill make your life hell you little bitch. so fuck off for now. Current Music: alkaline trio "trucks an trains" (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 21st, 2004
5:56 am	wee wee pee pee dad got shaun of the dead for tonight. its suppose to be funny as hell. i hope ive been waiting forever to see it. i was in such a bitchey mood today. perry made me smile though.. hes a good kid. always makes me laugh. oh an we got new risers in the chorus room. they suck. schools not so bad. JAY came home. ha ha ha..hes kickass..too bad his girlfriends a fag. AMOS also came home for christmas. damn its going to be some good times with me, jay, amos and rob. too bad jay an amos have shit-t girlfriends. they just seem to sit around an wine all the time. snows here. i dont think its gonig to be around for much longer. too bad. i was hopein for some good ol snowboard action up at amos's. the time will come an i will shred to victory. oh dear god. caritia on the bus today was giving me a massage. omg did it feel good. life is good. P.S we need to hang out with SETH...he fucken seems kick ass Current Mood: groggy Current Music: bob marley "could this be love" (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 18th, 2004
10:10 am	crying wont solve anything i woke up this morning at 2:00 crying. i had this dream that nicole wasnt in my life anymore. yeah..she died. i woke up an it seemed to real. i couldnt stop crying. wtf. what if one day i dont have anyone. what am i going to do. i take advantage of the friends i have. i if dont sit down an realize that these people arent all ways going to put up with my bull shit, in the end i wont have anyone. NICOLE: i havent even known you for more than 2 years. an already ive had the time of my life. we have been through so much. you really are my best friend. i love you man. i dont ever want you to go away, the feelings i had this morning hurt so bad. i coudnt stop crying cause i really did belive that you werent there any more, all this shit flashed through my head. i was htinking about the future. an you know what. it sucked just THINKING about you not being there. we have so much ahead of our selves. im gonig to college, in nashua, an i want to make sure that we never fall apart. AMY: man have we been through some stuff. i remember the first year we were friends, all we did was fight. an look at us now....5 years later. man oh man have we been through some stuff. an so what if you fucked the guy i liked. i can get over it...cause thats what friends do. an i know you got my back. i love you too amy...an you know that im the sis you never had. whether you want me or not baby..im here to stay. TERI: theresa. what to say man. ive known you sence like 4th grade. we never really hung out till 7th or 8th. but you know what. im so happy you learned to forgive me. i know what ive done. WTF was i thinking...i made fun of you a lot in 8th grade. if i coould i would kick myself in the face for it. your a good person teri. you really are. i know we havent really done anything too...drastic..but 2005 we are so getin drunk together. itll be fun.....i promise. ill always remember swimming at the cories, good times i might add. an we will always have the "Guy list, who owns who"..ha ha ha... ZACK EFRON! hell yeah. thanks teri. i love you t-dog. ha ha ha... as im sitting here thinking about everything. im also thinking about how my life is good. so what if i dotn go out every weekend an party. fuck that. im cool with just siten back an chillen once in awhile. what really sucks is that not only am i hurting myself by sucking in school, but i hurt everyone around me. i dont have a job, my grades suck, an not too mention i dont have my licence. come on julie. wtf are you going to do with your life. i need to shape up....NOW! fucken A man. ive gained wait sence i stoped skateboarding for the winter, i dont have enough money for a snowboard, an i dont have money to pay the fine on the 14th. wtf am i doing. i need to stop. in my dads words "i need to step up to the plate an bat, it doesnt matter if you strike out or even hit it..just as long as you know that you tryed your best."..well dad i never really realized what i was doing untill last night. i know it sounds cheezey..but i dont want to be alone. i really dont. love everyone in my life right now..an im going to push everyone away if i dont shape up. so im going to do it. IM GOING TO TRY! thats right...... Current Mood: scared Current Music: foo fighters.."hero" (Comment on this)
Monday, December 13th, 2004
3:22 pm	why trust me...i know im nice court went ok. it was good having my dad there an all. being able to talk during eveything was cool to. let the pressure off. wtf man. $300 for a beer. so i guess the cops didnt wright us down for open containers. just unlawful posession. ive got to the 14th of jan and feb to pay. if i dont have the money then ive got to go back to court an wait again for them to call me up an tell them whats up. we werent there for long...around 2hours. it sucked i was the only one who went back to school out of the 3 of us. not to mention that tom didnt even show up for the court date. sucks to be him. it was crazy being there cause out of the what.....maybe 30 people in there. i knew about...12 of them. ha ha ha. weekend stunk. just sat at teris an watched movies. hope this weekend is better. i guess me an nic are going to nashua to see some fag who she use to like but never came to swanzey to see her. ditched her about.....3 times. he left an away message like " why dont you just go spend your time fucking the football team."..something like that. it was just lamn how he couldnt talk to her about his problem he just made an ass of himself. so we are going to surprise him at his work. i wonder how many applebees there are in nashua?... maybe..just maybe...there will be some alcohol in my life this weekend. kickass. jay comes up this friday for christmas. this should be fun. an maybe we can all hang like ol times. me, amos, and jay. fuck. im excited for vacation. justin this kid nic works with said i seem kickass to hang out with. well thats what nic told me at least. cool. new drinking buddies. i like the way the new year is coming. its good to be me right now. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: slayer.."at dawn they sleep" (Comment on this)
Monday, December 6th, 2004
8:13 pm	wish for wings that work just got done with rehersal for chorus. god its hard. in one of our scenes i get stuck next to the 2 smelliest girls in the ENTIRE world. no...they smell HORRIBLE. an one cant sing. not to mention the other girl is a soprano..an what am i ...an alto, thats right. HOLLA to all the altos out there. peace. so i guess this weekend me an nic are drinking..you know...in memory of the party that never happened. too bad courts on monday at 9 in the am. this song overdue by the get up kids...its so...nice. makes me feel all warm inside. mm.... well listen here. during 5d lunch theres my friend jesus an his gang throw rocks at the teachers parking lot, but instead today they were throwing drinks. so there were like 4 milk cartons an 2 eggnogs. i guess brad decided to take it apon him self to draw a large PENIS on one of the cars. ha ha ha...i know were are going to hear about this one in the morning announcements. ha ha ha... did i mention that a good friend of mine got his lip peirced. oh damn he looks good. the hottest thing for guys...LIP RINGS...hell yeah. ahuh. so jill got her monroe done. hmm...what ever. fuck it. i guess over vaca im scalping my ears..i hope. NIC...WE NEED TO GO TO PIERCE THIS TOO. NOW!! Current Mood: mischievous Current Music: guns n roses "patience" (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 5th, 2004
12:53 pm	everyday bleeds into today can you think of one reason why i cant try in school?..well me neither. so i have come to think that from yesterday on, im TRYING to pass. if i can graduate this year..that would be awsome, but the rate im going at...im doomed to repeat the 12th grade. DRAMA class is starting soon. fucken hell yeah. this weekend wasnt all that bad. slept over teris house friday and sat. we just kicked back and watched horror movies all weekend. damn right. i applyed for a job at the chinese resurant down the road. hell if i dont get this job im going to flip. i need money. for canada, the new snowboardpark, the new skate park down in boston. hmm..and plus christmas is comming an i have NO money to buy any body anything. now im going to feel like a fucken ass when people give me stuff and i have nothing but a home-made card. i watched the movie elf. i thought that it was funny, but will ferral has done better. the part when he jumps in the tree, i might have pissed myself i laughed so hard. Current Mood: quixotic Current Music: taking back sunday.."you're so last summer" (Comment on this)
Friday, December 3rd, 2004
3:37 pm	unless you think im not worthy. so im thinking maybe i was a little hard on jill. its just..i fucken hate being picked on. and she just made me feel like im the nasty ass. but really, i just think i fliped out. shes not all that bad. come to find out that nick doesnt like nicole. what an ass. he came up here...he seemed really nice...then they fooled around while me an jill were shopping. so he didnt call her at all after that..then comes to find out he didnt want anything to do with her any more. well, his loss. not only does he lose nicole...but he will never get to see how great me an nic are. shes like my other half, even though i dont understand her some times. i thought she liked jessica..but then i hear about how she wants to punch her in the face and shit. hhmm....nicole told me jill wants me to go to ny with her an nic. hell yeah... ny fucken rocks. theres no place like the big apple. shit..nicoles allergic to apples. hmm...ha ha ha..i crack myself up some times. jesus and his friends throw rocks at the cars out side in the teachers parking lot, so i guess today he threw a rock an heard 2 things hit the ground. HA HA HA. ok so listen to this...i found out why this kid in my school walks funny. when he was in elementary school he was walking down the stairs with his friends, then he farted, an you know kids they all ran down the stairs, but to catch up the kid jumped down the stairs an broke both his legs....crazy eh. put that one in your pipe and smoke it. i that this weekend goes ok. im suppose to party with jill, bobby, and jeff. maybe even brother sean. an i guess that nick at nics work says i seen kick ass to hang out with. hell yeah. new friends. god what i good life i live. ---(im so excited for drama class to start. i have about 3 weeks till then. YES!)--- sight of the day: watching alex smack into the aud. door. ha ha ha.... Current Mood: chipper Current Music: the get up kids "overdue" (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 28th, 2004
9:26 am	fake it till they make it... we finally met the natorius nick yesterday. hes pretty fucken cute. im happy for nicole, she needs this in her life. so il brake down what happened. i went to the mall with nicole and jill. we get there we met nick, him an nicole wander off. so i think to my self this isnt going to be bad. jills pretty cool. so we walk around for awhile, then she starts complaining. so thats what...maybe 30 mins into shopping. im just like this is going to be a long shop. i dont know but i got this feeling she didnt want to walk with me. maybe im just not "cute" enough for her. i say this refurring to the last time me an jill were in a car. me nicole an asshead were going to the mall like last week an we were talking about how some people have types they like in people ..you know what i mean. ok so we were all talking an jill "joking" says julie your no guys type. hmm...well dont that just bring your ego up to a high. back to my story. so we are shopping an shes still complaining. then we finally met up with nic and nick. then head back to the car..yadda yadda ( theres some chatting involved some were). get in the car...me nic an fuck ass are talking an ever sence nic told jill that nick might be her type an they would get along good, jill just keeps saying shit. like well we could never be together cause you too are. who says that. see not only does she never have anything nice to say about me but she brings her own sister down. way to be cool. i have come to the conclusion that anyone who looks at jill and likes what they see, should talk to her for about an hour, wait make it 30 mins. they would realize what a bitch she is. an im not just saying that. she really is. today went pretty damn good. stayed up last night to watch SNL and MADtv. like every saturday. i didnt go to bed untill around 4, an then nicole calls at 11:30. dear god. im still half asleep. but any how, we got to keene like 3 times. one to develope film, wich came out nice..ha ha ha, an another for mcdonalds..oh an tanning. hell no i didnt go tanning. no effence. just not my thing. i make the farmers tan work. ha ha ha...then head back to nicole..eat some mac an cheese watch grind an here i am. working on how i can fucken buy this snowboard. maybe ted will let me have like a tab or something. hell yeah that would rock. quote from maybe last weekend : " i never really nudest it" - nicole ha ha ha ...my little lemon face..smile like a donut Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: atreyu..."dont laugh" (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 25th, 2004
1:25 am	maybe i should hate you for this..... maybe im not the coolest kid ever, but im damn decent. no i have no idea why nicole hasnt called me at all. no i dont know why as of this moment the only people i meet suck. i mean, the whole mall thing last saturday. that was fucken queer, those guys were fucken losers. i dont know why i fucken need anyone else, i have plenty of friends now. well i guess nicole is still stressing about getting a dress for the 11th. but i would love to go with her. it would be like our first offical road trip together. but chances of my parents ever trusting me to leave this fucken state. slim to none. i really hope her dad lets her go though. she really likes this kid. ive talked to him for like 2 mins, he seems decent, plus hes in a fucken band, hell yeah! speaking of bands, i made a deal with cheshire music center, about getting the drum set. i hope this shit goes through. i had a littel chat with my mom and the plan is to go get the monroe done around the 5th, THEN ill be able to get my lip ring back, sence you know the first time it closed up then i got the other side done. i plan on getting the " second" one right next to the left one. i think it looks sweet. old school, the nightmare before christmas, jay and silentbob strike back, anastatia, kikis dilivery service. the movies i watched yesterday. damn, wow im starting to think that my life is getting boring. an plus ive gained about...8 pounds sence ive stoped skating. i fucken hate this weather. rain blows. too wet to skate, and no snow for snowboarding. what a life i live. i fucken sick of everything. i need something new in my life. like a JOB. that would be nice. but i want something that makes you do physical work. i need the workk out. so im applying for the moving comany in keene. they said the dont usually hire girls but i might be an acception. hmm...... hope everyone has a great THANKSGIVING. now fuck off, im spent Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: bob marley, could this be love (Comment on this)